Moses Cone!
I don’t know about y’all but it is very hard for me to believe that the past 6 months are already gone. I remember the beginning of this whole process like it was just yesterday. But enough focus on the past, lets look at the future!
Today I am supposed to write out all the things I have learned while living in Kenya. In actuality, I’m procrastinating because that sounds like a very daunting task to me right now. So I am skyping a friend in New Zealand and closing out my finances at the main office. I think after lunch I will tackle the task of understanding the Lord’s plan. Over the next three days I will finish editing my last video, send out both my video projects, finishing editing photos, buy a few last-minute gifts, do my debrief with Trish, fill out all the paperwork and spend time praying over the past, present and future.
Then, Thursday night at 7pm I’ll get into the taxi and head to the airport where my plane will take off and that will be that. The wheels will lift off the ground and I’ll have my last view of this beautiful country. I’ll say goodbye to the life I’ve lived here and turn my eyes towards the next adventure of England and Switzerland.
I’ll spend 4 days with my sister Carie in London, seeing the sights, eating delicious food, catching a show of our favorite band NEEDTOBREATHE and filling each other in on the past 6 months of our lives. Then it’s off to Switzerland for a few days where I’ll meet up with friends that I spent the first few months here in Kenya with. They have graciously welcomed me into their home to see their country and learn more about their lives!
It will be a very busy week as I travel around Europe a little, especially after just leaving Kenya but I’m incredibly grateful for the time to relax. The time between leaving and arriving home. The anticipation of leaving (and all the emotions that come with it) will be over but I won’t have to face the reality of life in America yet. I will get a chance to just live. A time with no questions and no expectations from anyone. I’ll get to pour out my heart to my sister and reflect on life a little before I answer to people at home.
I am so excited to share what I have experience with friends and family but I’m thankful for the time to just sit and think first. I think it was a gift from the Lord in that it will allow me the opportunity to straighten out my thoughts and emotions of leaving before I’m hit with all the emotions of arriving home. Transitions are always nice š
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As I am preparing to leave I am asking myself all sorts of questions:
what are you doing after this?
who are you now that you have experienced this other world?
what do you want from life at home?
what will my struggles be?
where is the Lord calling me?
how do I live the way He has taught me to here, back in the States?
So many questions that I don’t think I’ll be able to answer until I’m back home. So many questions that occupy my mind and remind me how small my view of this world and my time on earth is. When these types of questions push through my brain, I tend to get wound-up quickly and lose faith in my ability to answer them all. The funny thing is that it’s not up to me to answer them. It’s up to Jesus and when I lose control of the answers I find that Jesus had them all figured out before I even asked them. He doesn’t always tell me the answers when I ask, but I have learned to trust that in His time He will show me the way.
So as I get ready to take-off, I have decided to work steadily towards understanding the heart of Jesus and to trust that the rest of the unknown is up to Him.
That being said, see you in 12 days America!